If it’s goodbye 2004 and hello 2005 why do I have such a strong case of SSDD?
It’s the middle of the day on the last day of this year. For the last few weeks I have been looking forward to 2005 like kids look forward to going to the toy store. High probability that you’ll walk out with the same kind of "crap" that you had before...but hell, at least it’s new crap.
I guess I shouldn’t complain, not in the least. I don’t even like complaining. I’m one of those people who every now and then like to openly admit that life stinks, but as soon as it’s out my mouth I have to find a way to "fix" whatever is wrong. But that’s just me being a Scorpio, born from a Sagittarius and a Capricorn. Don’t get it twisted, I’m not throwing a pitty party, I do still have lots of hope for 2005. I just realized that even thought it’s a new journey I’m still walking the road with the same tools that got me off the last street.
Last year just put me though some major hell. You know, normal life tribulations. It seems so easy to say what the right choices are when your helping someone else though a crisis. But it’s hard as hell when you have to find the answers yourself. I can honestly say that I am ending the year better than which it began. I have so much to be thankful for, and I am. I can actually say that with a straight face, and not have to stand aside and wait for the lightening strike. Yet there are some things that still make me go ‘ho-hum’.
1) Bush didn’t loose. It makes me feel so better saying that instead of having to wrap my brain around the fact that he won something.
2) My family back home is still having financial problems, which leaves a sour taste in my mouth at the thought that my husband and I are actually doing pretty well.
and most importantly
3) No matter what I do, I still cant make life work well. When I am happy there always seems to be something wrong with someone else. Or if I am sad, everyone else seems to be so darn happy they don’t notice.
On a lighter note I got straight A’s again and my home office is all set up so I can play computer games while I do homework...multi tasking at it’s best. It’s another year true, but it’s another year! God is taking out his squeegee and wiping the streaks of 2004 off the glass and getting us all ready for the bug gut stains to come in 2005.
I guess as I learn more and more about this whole blogging thing I will tell more and more about what’s going on inside my southern, overly imaginative brain. But for today I will say Merry Christmahanukkwanzaka and happy 2005.
I guess I shouldn’t complain, not in the least. I don’t even like complaining. I’m one of those people who every now and then like to openly admit that life stinks, but as soon as it’s out my mouth I have to find a way to "fix" whatever is wrong. But that’s just me being a Scorpio, born from a Sagittarius and a Capricorn. Don’t get it twisted, I’m not throwing a pitty party, I do still have lots of hope for 2005. I just realized that even thought it’s a new journey I’m still walking the road with the same tools that got me off the last street.
Last year just put me though some major hell. You know, normal life tribulations. It seems so easy to say what the right choices are when your helping someone else though a crisis. But it’s hard as hell when you have to find the answers yourself. I can honestly say that I am ending the year better than which it began. I have so much to be thankful for, and I am. I can actually say that with a straight face, and not have to stand aside and wait for the lightening strike. Yet there are some things that still make me go ‘ho-hum’.
1) Bush didn’t loose. It makes me feel so better saying that instead of having to wrap my brain around the fact that he won something.
2) My family back home is still having financial problems, which leaves a sour taste in my mouth at the thought that my husband and I are actually doing pretty well.
and most importantly
3) No matter what I do, I still cant make life work well. When I am happy there always seems to be something wrong with someone else. Or if I am sad, everyone else seems to be so darn happy they don’t notice.
On a lighter note I got straight A’s again and my home office is all set up so I can play computer games while I do homework...multi tasking at it’s best. It’s another year true, but it’s another year! God is taking out his squeegee and wiping the streaks of 2004 off the glass and getting us all ready for the bug gut stains to come in 2005.
I guess as I learn more and more about this whole blogging thing I will tell more and more about what’s going on inside my southern, overly imaginative brain. But for today I will say Merry Christmahanukkwanzaka and happy 2005.
posted by Tonya-Yvonne Lightfoot | 3:10 PM
1 Comments:
Welcome to blogging, Tonya-Yvonne. I hope and pray that 2005 is much more stable and happy year for you. I wish you many hours of happiness in your home office, too!
Eternal love,
Your Husband, Osolage
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